Noticed it or not??? Last Jan passed really fast... I forgot that I've even celebrated my birthday that month... I guess I forgot to thank some pple for their presents and well wishes...
Then..it's been 6 weeks of school already... Even my course has started...
My teacher once told me this, "Adults can live with only 4 hrs of sleep."
Now, that's the amount of sleep I get everyday...even when Kakak does everything for me...I'm really lucky there's kakak... Yesterday, I sat at the side of my bed..(now it's my sis' bed actually)... I leaned my head on the sides of the ladder...n I fell asleep...I was in that position for more than an hour...n would haf stayed like that if kakak's phone didn't ring... see? even my waking up is done by kakak...though indirectly...
I'm so grateful for the presence of kakak... I can really see how Allah has planned my life...putting every tests and every happiness right where they're supposed to be... just imagine, if kakak hasn't appeared in my life... I think, I'll be reduced to 4 hrs of sleep per week!!! or...if kakak has always been in my life...I wouldn't know how to do houseworks or cook... I miss cooking n baking though...but what ever it is... I shouldn't be complaining...
Somehow... I am... I need motivation to carry on with living the way I live... I'm sure I'm no longer as cheerful as I used to be... fun ideas doesn't come to me like they used to... I can't even compose poetry anymore...
Can I get back the bubbly me??? Can I be the confident me I used to be??? Am I an arrogant, defiant, stubborn person who can't accept little changes in life???
Or...
Is it just that phase of life??? The time where, life is no longer a playground???
SWEET LOVE 12:16 AM ;