They say, when things go wrong, try looking for the bright side. Keep looking if you can't find it. But we know that if we look for something real hard, we'd probably miss out on a lot of things.
I have been looking...looking so hard...to find myself...who I am...who I can be...the deeper I reach into myself...the further I feel that I am lost...
Got myself so busy that I failed to realize that my sis was in depression...I failed to notice the troubles my students were getting into...I failed to notice what was coming from him...I failed to notice tears behind her shimmering eyes...I even failed to help a lady in need...
Just how selfish can I be?
SWEET LOVE 8:22 PM ;
After 2 weeks of school, it's finally time for us to have a proper Monday. Everyone was present... it was Maths for the first three periods...we had so much time left...little did i know...what seemed to be a normal start of the week will turn out to be something else...
By the end of the day...I was sneezing away...
Tuesday 14th July 2009
I woke up with a headache so great that I felt like banging my head against the wall...reached out for my mobile and texted pple to tell them that I won't be in sch...at abt 9+, dad said to go to Dr Zailan...my temperature had gone down a little...but back at the clinic...it showed 38.5! Received 3 days mc...At first...I thought...'ah...I'll be in school by Thursday...'
Little did I know...I spent the rest of Tuesday-Thursday in bed!
Friday 17th July 2009
No signs of full recovery...voiceless and almost headless...I visited the doctor once again...n received another 2 days MC...received also, stronger medication...by the evening...I was feeling a-oh-kay...I watched Night at the Museum2, Kuch Kuch Hota Hai, n I dunno wat else till I get so bored...
So, what will you do if u had so many mc's???
SWEET LOVE 4:13 PM ;
So far, everything is ok...except for
1. No lift. (But hey! I can lose weight climbing all those stairs.)
2. Class aircon not working half the time. (But hey! The monitor knows what to do.)
3. Have to wake up and leave home so early in the morning. (But but hey!! Early bird catches the worm aite?)
4. Long long working hour. (Less work brought home...I suppose)
5. Hunger pangs...(wake up earlier and have breakfast = healthier lifestyle)
Hmm...looks like everything has its solution aite? Well...we have to be optimistic in all that we do...that's the key to happiness...
The good thing about this new place...
1. Nearer to home by MRT (but by cab...as expensive as going to Geylang Lor 13)
2. Ramadhan later, dun need to worry abt rushing home oredy...
3. It's huge!!! Really..it is...
4. Going home can save money...walk to Toa Payoh n take the MRT home
5. My own work space...spacious!
What else should I say???
SWEET LOVE 8:27 PM ;
Firstly...remember this photo?
This was taken during Council Camp '07... Oh...those happy times...where work was so much more fun... more teaching, less admin... life-long skills you'll never get from school like camps, post exam activities, the different themed months, retreats etc...
Not that I'm saying that I don't enjoy my work anymore... I still do... Really... Don't go rolling your eyes now, k?
Ok...now the update...
Dee still owe me pictures from Ira's wedding...The wedding was of course a wonderful one... wah...my best friend is now somebody's wife... May you be seorang isteri yang setia dan taat...
Ira had us all wearing pink... so I took out my one and only pink kurung...yes... I love pink..but pink kurung just doesn't suit me...so I never exactly own pink kurungs...luckily, my pink kurung turns out ok...just that it was a little warm...
Just two pics, one of her cousins and me...the other of the pelamin
Next, first week of June holz: NIE.
yah...the whole of the first week, I had my NIE lessons...first two days was ok... we still had energy...Wednesday, things get a little boring... Thursday, we had a field trip... went to Reflections @ Bukit Chandu...it was kind of an eye-opening trip... "Jepun datang..Jepun datang" (ingat tu kak??? haha!) Friday, I was tired already... Well, I had a late Thursday nite u c...my dad decided to dine out...Jln Kayu...it was a long time since I last had my meal there... way before Kakak even appeared in our life... So, I overslept on Friday... I woke up and was like...gosh!!! I'll need to cab to class...even so, I'll be late... then guess wat?? Kak Lina called...Kak Zubaidah will be fetching me in five minutes!!! Wahhh!!! Timing cantik seh kakkkk!!! I love you lah...Selamat dah mandi...kalau tak...how to get ready in 5 minutes kan?? N that day, I almost fell asleep in class...woo hoo!!!
Btw, thanks Sharifah for covering for me...Team PPG eh...let's make it work, however hard it may seem..
Next, second week of June holz: packing.
Yup...MAI will be moving to Toa Payoh...yeah...nearer to home = less transport time = less transport fare!!! Weeeee!!! So, we had to start packing... Monday was meeting and Geog lesson first... ok...sorry girls n boys...I was really off-mood that day... Tuesday thru Friday was packing...from the library at musollah, to my table to PDC to ELC... students came down to help...
the boys @ ELC...packing pakai cowboy hat nampak??? yg PINK tu, apahal?
fad n I packing... I didn't even realise someone took the pic...
this is a... round bottomed flask...the name came to me only when Kak Zubaidah appeared...heh!
Not forgetting...my dear, dear table...serviced me for about 3 years...ever since 2006 Dec, nothing came down other than papers...things kept going up... someone ever said, my cupboard looked ready to be given as present.
Now, everything just had to come down... my stickers! Akem's hard work...but well...she'll help me to look for more soon...will you, Akem?
Empty ain't it??? After taking everything down, I actually cleaned the surface with KIF (JIF/CIF) whatever you know it as...it's now shinging, shimmering, splendid... wahaha! More like, plain...
Up next... CRACKERS? !!!
Yeah, wondering what on Earth 'Crackers?' is? It's this firework, firecrackers, fire what have you's show...Singapore Arts Festival had gone to heartlands... so Yishun was lucky enough to get this thing... well, I'm not exactly an arts fan ah... just happened to pass by that place when my dad drove pass it on our way to send 'Akasyah home... at first we thought it was some circus...then, after checking it out...I found out what it was... We missed the first show on Friday...so, I went on Saturday... with my dad n sis...texted 'Akasyah to tell him what it exactly was...n he seemed interested to go...but he didn't...after the show...texted 'Akasyah to tell him how it went... it was great... enough to make me want to watch it again... Went down on Sunday...this time my whole family went...6 of us, plus Thasha, her mum, her bro n friends, my sis' friend, zara, mamad n ahmad...'Akasyah n his sis went too...saw them there...so cute gitu lor...2 lil kids watching firework together...
anyway, crackers was really good lah...normally, i see fireworks in front of me...just on one side...but for crackers, it wasn't just fireworks in front of me...there were fireworks like everywhere we turn...front, right, back, left... so for those IN the place...it was awesome...for those outside, they only get to see a part of it... My sis haven't uploaded the video...n the one from my hp wasn't really clear...so, I'll just post some pics ait?
For the first pic, it's some cartwheel thingi...go google it...to me this isn't the most spectacular one...
For the second one, actually there's a lady in the middle...she was giving some speech at first... she kept yelling WILL YOU TAKE THE RISK??? Her speech was quite full of quotes...I think she was trying to be motivating...haha... "If you risk nothing, you're risking even more"
And...finally, the picture of the post...my oh-so-adorable nephew!!! I love you, Ahmad Hassan!!!
SWEET LOVE 12:25 AM ;
Ten mostly said phrases last week.
1. I haven't finished marking.
2. I don't thing you did well.
3. You need to improve your English.
4. Can you guys please listen?
5. Fill up the content page properly.
6. Entah/I dunno.
7. Dah makan?
8. Nari makan apa?
9. Wah...penat seyyy
Ten thing I did most last week. (other than the normal eating blah3)
3. More marking
4. Results analysis
5. On the phone with Sherry
6. Run up and down the stairs
7. Buy chocolates
8. Call Cik Habibah
9. Check out something on the internet
10. Not sleeping
Most embarassing moment.
When I teared in the train. (I tried to control, k...)
When Ha*** told me something.
When the same Ha*** told me something else.
Most satisfying moment.
When another Ha*** showed me his contented and happy face.
Most irritated moment.
When another another Ha*** told me something.
Most cheeky moment.
When I type this, knowing that you will be irritated with the somethings and the Ha***.
So, that kinda sum up last week for me. Hahahaha!
SWEET LOVE 7:10 PM ;
So, aim high, but cheating is not allowed.
They say, when life gives you lemons, make lemonade...
So, if questions are difficult, don't be afraid.
They say, there is no failure except in no longer trying.
So, keep on trying, get up if you keep falling.
They say, luck happens when opportunity meets preparation,
So, all the best and good luck for the examinations!!!!
SWEET LOVE 12:55 PM ;
I was reading the previous post when it suddenly came to me. The crust may be cool. The jam, freakin' hawt! So...
It then occured to me that it's just like human. How most of us try to stay cool, when deep down inside, we're burning hot. You may be real mad at someone, but you don't show it. Or, you may be hurt at some things that was said, or done, but you shrug it off and show your cool.
But just like the tart, in the end, it caused me to hurt. Meaning, your staying cool, may hurt some people, knowing or unknowingly. When I held the cool tart, it didn't occur to me that the fillings (jam) would be hot. If the crust was hot, then touching the tart itself would have hindered me from holding it. Then, I wouldn't have been hurt by the fillings, at more than one place to be clearer.
Let's put this into real life situation (as if this didn't occur in real life)... Say..hmm... I am really, awfully angry. But somehow, I kept my cool. Then, people, not knowing I'm angry, do something that make me angrier...surely, I'll end up exploding... So I'll hurt more people, won't I?
So, maybe, we shouldn't try to keep our cool, rite? We really should let it off!!! Let go... Let it out... Tell people you're angry, sad, unhappy...what ever lah...just don't bottle things up in you...it may hurt more people...
I think there's a reason why people say "spread the joy" and "share your sorrows." Not the other way round.
SWEET LOVE 12:06 AM ;